No 5 down .......( feeling)

0801 2010 .... a great down day..........
(Raining) ........ just lik3 my mood......... worth than sad.......

Wak3 up early at 730am .....
Go 2 selayang hospital ...... tak3 the result n C doctor agn.......
On the way..... wry abt..... it serious or nt ..... bt...... just dun wan think....clos3 eyes sit on car.....

830am.....
C doctor check on my body.......
gt some sign on my body..... bcos .... b4 3day tag something on my body.......
b4 tt me also scar3 ........will it 2 serious....

Doctor tell me......
u gt allegrin .....wat Paraben Mix .......
Preservativ3 in food .... lik3.....
Salad dreessings ( vinegar i think) ..... mayonnaise..... spiced sauce.....
Mustard.... frozen dairy product....... baked product ......

R u kidding .....?...... WTF ....... 超級白......
I m a chef leh ...... cant eat.... salad..... spiced sauce..... frozen dairy producy.... even baked product...... REli wat the wtf........
After tt ..... go down take medicine ... start think ...... wry.... downing......


At afternoon..... me reli Emo.... think..... yyyyyyy.....
y wan happen on m3.......
i m doing something wrong.......?
ma de........ y dun let me knw early....... let me knw after wan finish my chef course (now)
....... m I CHOOSE wrong my career ........? M i taken the wrong roads.......?
things..... happen like tt.......
Giv3 me big big hopes........ then destroy it in front of u....
Y u so cruel..... do it 2 me...... nt onli tis tim3.....
U r sucker .... u r fcuk er....... Damn it...................................super whit3.....................

Tq hy.... come msn wif me..... bt......
reli dun wan u all wry.....
jiu.... just..... nth........
me also dun wan my mama wry....... dun show sad face in front of family........
The thing just me own solv3 it....... I m 2 stupid? ..... i will keep it ..... do it........
tq u all car3 ....... tq x 99 .......

Nit3..... 830pm.... go meeting at kepong centre......
fren also notic3..... me v down just ...... sit sid3........ bt NO talking...... silent ~
me also TELL them me go selayang hopistal ..... checking .....
tell them the result also.....
They aslo pity me....... me also nth wan 2 say......
TQ CENTRE fren ....... meet u all x long time .... bt reli gt family feels..... u all 2 frenly .... tq
Gong xi .... some fren can go CHina wif company trip..... bcos they do the job wif gd.....
me x enuff gd yet..... they keep encourage me..... nxt trip we will go china tgt.......

tHINK bak..... 1 sentences fr my uplin3 .... say b4.......
Sal3 is ur other way ....... nt onli chef..... now me reli feel it deeply.....
Mayb me reli cant..... b a gd chef..... me will giv3 up...... giv3 up all effort me mak3 in 2yrs.......
Sad .... reli ...... bt... my dream will .... keep going..... open my own brand japanese restaurant

IN futur3......
U all rmb who is kong or ah jiang......
The chef? ..... mayb..... mayb nt...............
Mayb me using a saleman as job.... meet u all agn.....
I m believe...... my 2010 ..... will b chg many things........ u all wan keep notic3......
Force by ...... society..... by family.... as a big bro.... me will growth n matur3......
So.... finally........
+u 4 u all de lif3.........

Let me gt a chance..... do my best.... enhanced ur lif3.... wif my color ........
even i m nt ur best fren ...... just in ur heart ..... i m satisfied...... TQ.......